THE YEAR I WASN'T THERE

2018 is a total blur for me.

I spent most of it grappling with my mental health issues and finding the right medication by trial and error.

Most of the time I felt my body was a blob totally empty of any vital energy and the only place I felt safe in was the bed. If I count the hours I spent lying down they far surpass the ones standing upright.

Depression is an odd beast to tackle.

At times I felt almost enamoured of my hopeless state, wickedly seduced into letting myself drop into the floating state of non-existence.